My Failed Target

November 26, 2012

The end of this year will be come..  2012 will get an end. What I have reached this year?? I don’t know. I just feel that this year I don’t get something like I want. I do not use this year wisely. I got this year run as usual. This is a heavy year I ever got.

 I still working at others office, still at Tuas Mas without any other something new I’ve got. I’m still Alicia (maybe) without an increase value of life.  I feel that all of my friends run while I’m still at the same place. It’s really hurt when I’m thinking about that. Where is my spirit?? Where is the knowledge that I have got from motivation book?? Have I use my brain wisely??? Why I still at here?? Why I just at the same place like the year before???

I still remember at  September 06, 2012 I have make some target for my life before this December.

September 06, 2012
This is my promise and my target until the end of this year…
1.       Fluent in english
2.       Understand a little Chinese
3.       Make some article till up to 50pages
4.       Save money till next year I have enough money to credit a car

And so, what should I do to make it happen in my life??
To become fluent in English, I don’t have any idea except to practicing an English language in my daily. Maybe the grammar will be false. It will not be perfect but I have try it before.  I just want to try, try and try until next year a have brave enough to join some English debate with others. Right now, maybe my English is just 10%, but I believe next year I can increase until 80-100%.
SO…
This is my promise to reach my first target: I will use English all day when I speak to myself.. in my pray, when I am happy, angry, sad, etc..   

Then for my second target.. I really getting crazy to this target. It’s really difficult for me to speak Chinese. Who will teach me about that?? In English I can speak and learn with my friends. But for Chinese I just can learn from conversation book. Just it.. Oh My God….. But I’ll try it.. so, let’s open our Chinese book.. Jia You!!!!

For my third target..
Make some article until up to 50 pages. Now I am on the process of it. I’m fight to make myself want to write some article everyday. But there’s always problem on it. Every time when I was wrote I got sleepy. Really sleepy. I know it’s not a reason to canceled my promises. I will still do it.

My last target now is to save someone until next year I have enough money to credit a car
It will be a difficult target, because I should prepare for other needs. But I will try to spend my money as good as possible

And finally I was failed to make it happen L . I don’t know what I should do except said to myself that don’t  be sad,  don’t be regrets of all. It’s my turn now to make a new target with a new spirit in 2013. Just believe that I can reach my target and will get a final better.  So??? KEEP IT ON FIRE!!!!!!!!!!!